yvonneguerra84

My computer broke, and i haven’t been on for a while. i have a new pc and i’m back. sorry for not being here.

I know i haven’t written in a while. I’ve been so busy. Anyways, I ate 2 doughnuts today. Any ideas on what to do. I was thinking that If i don’t eat for the rest of the day, i should be fine calorie wise. I’ll have a apple or something like 5 but nothing big since i cheated. As soon as i decide i can’t touch something, I end up eating more of it. I am trying really hard this time. I only have 7 weeks till the end of my challenge, and i have only lost 4 pounds. I need help. Some real motivation I don’t know why I keep eating, even when I am so full, I keep eating. I know what I am doing to myself, and I can see myself getting bigger and bigger. Can someone please help me and tell me what you did. What was you wakeup call. I need help.I feel like i’m losing control.

I’m sorry i haven’t been here. my aunt passed away this week and i was in kentucky for the funeral. I’ll keep you all updated. I’m happy to be back though. kisses     yvonne

I weighed myself yesterday morning. 154, my goodness. I weighed myself this morning, 150. How did that happen. I can’t believe it. Probably because i drank so much water, and stop eating at 7pm. But i drank so much water i was peeing all day. lol. I feel  better now though. I drank about 64 oz. which is perfect, i felt better after that.

Hey buddies. This is my first day of the bottom line challenge that i told you all about. I am doing so good (not to brag). I saw my competition, wow, I wish them all luck, but not too much luck, coz i still want to win. lollollol.   I am so ready. I’m gonna go jogging when i get home from work. I’m acctually excited to go jogging, and i hate jogging. I am so happy to do this challenge. I’ts nice to have something to look forward too. I just keep looking at my skinny jeans ( my really skinny jeans.) i can make 20 by april 6, i know i can.

happy tuesday. I’m so happy, I did 25 laps up and down the stairs here at work. I was tired after 3 though lol. I don’t even want to eat anything  bad coz i know how hard it is to burn it off. I realized yesterday that jogging is a great way to relieve stress. I put on some music on my mp3 and just go for it. It feels nice. I’ts been rainy here but rain is much better that snow. I’m gonna go eat my lunch in about 30 min. I’ll be having 3 peices of turkey bacon and a bowl of oatmeal………………………well its 2:30 already, i have eaten 600 calories so far for the day. wow, i’m doing pretty good   lol

Every diet i have been trying, i have been so hungry between meals even after a snack (usually fruit).. Today i had 1 cup of oatmeal with a tbsp of brown sugar, and 3 pieces of turkey bacon, and a cup of green tea. I felt so energized. Its now 9:30am and i’m just now getting hungry so i am eating an oarnge. and i’m feeling full already. My coworkers are eating chinese food now that someone brought and i’m not even tempted to eat it. probably coz i ate a good breakfast. sangelic is a good inspiration, she already reached her goal. Good for her, i can’t wait to reach mine. I just need to stay focused. And about my hubby, he has been so nice to me. He put so many love songs on my mp3, i didn’t know until i listened to it this morning. that was so sweet of him. He came home early just to see me. I think him being so sweet is what is making me stick to this diet today. Any other day i would be all over that chinese food and doughnuts. I eat when i’m angry and my hubby has been making me feel so special. He says he want’s to make up for all the time he has been getting mad for stupid reasons. He even wanted me to sit on his lap when he used the computer. My day couldn’t get any better. I love my life. I have learned from something i’ve read that my day will be better if i replace every bad thought with a positive one. Like “I hate this job” with “I’m making money to give my family what they need” or “i’ts nice to take care of someone who needs me”. I have been doing this today. When i’m getting off track i think of my son isaiah(3) ………last night my son went to get his cookies of the counter, and right next to his cookies are a box with 4 chocolate cupcakes in them from my mother in laws work. He looked over at me and my hubbie on the computer and didn’t know i was watching him, he grabbed to cupcakes and ran for the stairs,lol, my husband got up and asked me, babe where did the cupcakes go, isaiah stopped and turned around and held both cupcakes in the air. It was so funny, it’s nice to have something to laugh at. He just knew he had been caught. lol.      I’m having such a great day.

I feel awsome. It feels so much better to stick to my plan than any cookies i could eat. I feel like i can really do this. I have a new journal called, ” i will lose weight this time” It’s really cool, it comes with stickers, so everyday that you meet your goal for calories, fat, protien and carbs, you get to put a sticker on top of the page that says “i did it”. it comes with a profile page to put your before and after pic, and a place to put all of your measurments. it is so cool. I just love it, and it has a little  book that fits in your purse so that when you go out you can write what you ate. and it has a chart to chart your weight. you should all get this journal at borders. just call first to see if they have it. it’s only 14.99 which isn’t that much for everything it comes with. I really write down everything, and i can see right there how many calories i can still have, or how much fat i can still have. i really want to put that sticker on the page today ( i’m like a 3 year old with a gold star) i am gonna do good today. =-0

We went to my husbands aunts house last night. His aunt gave me this really cool tank top, but when i looked at it, i thought to myself(this is WAY to big for me)………….anyways, it was xl, she had me try it on, and it fit. OMG, I can’t believe it fit. I have never been so ashamed as at that moment. I wanted to crawl under a rock. I cant even  believe she bought me an XL. I think i want to carry it with me, so whenever i want to eat something bad, i’ll just look at that top. I guess everyone who has lost any weight has had a moment like that. It’s my time now. I need to do this for me, no one else. I’m ready to do this now. yeah

i’ve gained 2 pounds in 1 week. I am starting to become the old me, not caring what i eat. well not really not caring, more like ignoring. it was so hard to lose those 2 pounds now i gain it back in aweek. i’m so mad at myself.the holidays are so hard. i was so unprepared for this. it started out just a little peice of cake, then just one cookie, then 2 then 4. and now i’m out of control. so far today i have eaten my total for the day. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I thought i was so good, i guess i am just not that strong.