yvonneguerra84

I’m so happy it’s friday. I have the whole weekend off. I’m so ready to reach my mini goal. We had to stop our gym membership at L.a.fitness. because they kept cheating us 70 dollars a month. They would take the 70 for me and my husband then take another 70 that they can’t explain why. They kept telling my husband to talk to our bank. grrrrrrr. it’s been 3 months they have been taking that extra 70 out. And they can’t explain where it is coming from. Now my husband got so mad that they asked him to leave, so there goes our membership. They are so frustrating. We are gonna go to lifetime instead, a little more expensive, but it’s open 24 hours 365 days a year. I can go early before I go to work even if i want too. or late when I work till 11pm. Just had to tell you all my problem of the day. Thanks for listening.

I have to learn to say no to all the sweets when I’m angry. I’ve found out that that’s what i’m doing. Instead of telling that person why i’m mad, i’ll go eat and it will make me feel better, for a little while. Then I will feel guilty for eating it. I have eatin so much today, now I feel terrible. I’m working 16 hours today, I’m a nursing assistant. I take care of dementia patients, and i’ts really hard work. I keep eating here, they always have cookies, candy, sweets. grggrrr, i’m so upset with myself. I think I will do a double workout tommorrow and cut back on my foods. I’m sorry hotrods!

I’m so frustrated, I saw my husbands ex girlfriend on friendster, and she is so pretty. She lives in the phillippines though. I wish I could look like her, she is like a size 2. oh well, i’ll never be a size 2, I don’t really want to be a size 2, maybe a size 5 would be good. I just don’t want to feel like she is a threat. I know she isn’t here, but i’m so afraid my husband will look at her and think, why did I leave her for this one. I know i’m being stupid, but i’m in a stupid mood today. I guess i can look at her as motivation to get thinner. My husband loves me, I know that, but……… I don’t know. any advice anyone. I think too much. lol. I’m going to the gym after work. I went to outlet at midnight on thursday, and bought so much stuff from adidas, i’t makes me feel good when I’m wearing nice clothes to exercise in. well ttyl. bye.

I am now under 150. I couldn’t wait for this day. I feel grrrrrrrreat. I acheived my mini goal, and I feel so much better about this weight loss thing. I think I can really do it. No turkey is gonna ruin this for me. I don’t want to be sad to look in the mirror anymore. Thank yo all for your help. mwah!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so sad, I ate like 10 cookies that a patients family brought in, they were little cookies, but it’s still bad. well, i havn’t eatin anything else though, so i have to make sure I eat less through out the day. I’ts my husbands birthday monday, and tonight he wants to go out and eat and watch beowulf. I will only get a salad. I didn’t reach my goal of 3 pounds this week, but I think 2 is ok. I exercised my a*& off lastnight. I am so glad I did.   I will tonight too. 1 hour on the eliptical again. It was so hard. but i did it. thank you for all of your help. but i need  some motivation. I need to stop eating the sweets. grrrrrrrrgrrrrrrrrr

Hello everyone, let’s get our work done today, I’m trying to stay motivated, but it’s hard when I’m so tired. I’m about to go weigh myself, I hope I didn’t gain any. I didn’t do bad yesterday so I shouldn’t, But it’s better to go in that way, so i’m not sooooooooo dissapointed. never mind, if i did it’s my fault and i just gotta work extra hard today.  c yall later. 

Thank you so much for making me see. I do love myself, well…………I’m trying really hard to. I have been so negative for most of my life, it’s hard to stop now. But my 3 kids are the greatest, and I thank God everyday for them.

I’m so tired of seeing those size 2 girls at the gym, with hardly anything on. I swear I see my husband glance, at one imparticular. She wears these tiny shorts,and this skin tight top that shows her tiny stomach. I hate her, I don’t know why but I do. I know I shouldn’t be mad but I am. I just want to be her. I want my husband to look at me like that. But I can’t really blame him, I don’t even want to look at myself. I wouldn’t be so bad if I didn’t have a road map all over my tummy from my kid’s. I just don’t feel beautiful anymore. can someone please help. I need someone to make me feel better, and let me know that I am not the only one who hate’s those girls.  grrrrgrrrrrrrgrrrrrrrrrrgrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!               

I had a terrible day, It was my mother in-law birthday, I ate a lot, but I just had a little of whatever I wanted to eat, before I would eat everything, I had a little cake, I tried to fill up on veggies, but I ate too many eggroles. I’m still proud I didn’t clean the table.lol! I got the billy blanks boot camp thing, lol, I did 20 minutes, and then my legs started hurting so bad, i could hardly walk (omg), I’ll try again tonight. I don’t get off of work till 11pm though, but it’s ok, I’m off tommorrow, my baby has her 4 month check up.. got go back to work    sigh        c yall later 

Hello everyone, I am doing good so far, besides the few bites of my son’s burger, and hot chocolate, but if i don’t allow myself some things, i’ll go crazy. and i ate salmon and rice for dinner, now i’m done for the day. I am going to work out later at LA fitness. I really should start taking advantage of the gym. Thanx for all the support everyone. ____*see yall at the finish line*