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We went to my husbands aunts house last night. His aunt gave me this really cool tank top, but when i looked at it, i thought to myself(this is WAY to big for me)………….anyways, it was xl, she had me try it on, and it fit. OMG, I can’t believe it fit. I have never been so ashamed as at that moment. I wanted to crawl under a rock. I cant even  believe she bought me an XL. I think i want to carry it with me, so whenever i want to eat something bad, i’ll just look at that top. I guess everyone who has lost any weight has had a moment like that. It’s my time now. I need to do this for me, no one else. I’m ready to do this now. yeah

i’ve gained 2 pounds in 1 week. I am starting to become the old me, not caring what i eat. well not really not caring, more like ignoring. it was so hard to lose those 2 pounds now i gain it back in aweek. i’m so mad at myself.the holidays are so hard. i was so unprepared for this. it started out just a little peice of cake, then just one cookie, then 2 then 4. and now i’m out of control. so far today i have eaten my total for the day. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I thought i was so good, i guess i am just not that strong.

I m so excited, I’m gonna meet my husbands friends from when he was in the phillippines. They live in california now and we are going in feb.  They have never seen me before, so I am so motivated to lose this weight and look better. I can’t wait. My coworker has been gone for like 2 months, he came back and when he saw me, he said, wow, you lost a lot of weight. You look so much better. That made me smile. And my other coworker, she told me that she can tell I have lost a lot of weight. I have really lost 16 pounds, I had lost a lot before starting this buddyslim. I still want to lose 20 pounds though, before I go to cal. or at least 18.Is that too much in 2 months?

well, more drama, I read my husbands ym, and saw he was asking HER who her first boyfriend was, I know i said this already, but i didn’t read the whole thing, he said ” your first boyfriend was probably me. lol ” I asked him why he would ask her that, and why he would write that, he said that wasn’t him, he promised, he said it must have been his brother trying to be funny. He said he has too much pride to write that, he said that sounds like he is still interested in her! He told me this, “I’m gonna end this now, I don’t care about her, I don’t care what she thinks, or what she has to say, I love you, and only you. So stop worrying, I don’t want you to keep thinking these thing’s, I don’t want you to be so suspicious of everything I do, I love you” Now, I believe him, but all that keeps going through my head, is that maybe he still has feelings for her. What you all don’t know is that I got pregnant before we decided to get married, and we had a tough time. He acctually told me he wasn’t ready, but we did it anyways. He says that he love’s me and that he is happy he married me, but all that I can think about, is that maybe he wasn’t ready because of her. When we were dating, THAT GIRL wrote me and email on friendster,” Did he ever tell you about the bad things hes done”. Now, I was really upset, So my hubby called her, and asked her why she wrote that, and she said she didn’t know why. And he told her he never wanted to talk to her again. that’s why they havn’t talked. She ACCIDENTALY sent an email to my husband when we were dating that “why did he choose her, I’m so mad at him, who is this yvonne anyways,” blah blah blah. She said she meant to send it to her friend. God I’m so mad, and sad, and sad…………….just needed to vent, sorry for making this so long. I don’t have anyone else to talk too.

Thank you everyone for your advice, I did talk to my husband, and he said he doesn’t want to talk to her anymore, that he really doesn’t have anything to say to her. He said that he doesn’t really know her anymore. He told me that when His friend asked her who her first boyfriend was, she gave someother guys name, when she had always told him that he was her first boyfriend. He seemed kind of hurt, but I could be wrong, I hope he isn’t coz I expect him to not care about that. He told me he loves me, and he doesn’t care about her anymore. I really believe him though. I just hope he is being honest, coz I love him more than anything. Thanx again for telling me to talk to him. I thought he would be angry, but he wasn’t at all. LUV YOU BUDDIES.

I’m so frustrated. I’m tired of being mad at my husbands ex. She invited him on yahoo messenger, and he didn’t tell me, I just went downstairs at like 2am and he didn’t say anything, then his brother and his friend were talking to her and I heard his brother say Bea. Then I asked who are you talking to, and he said his brother and friend were talking to bea. I hate it, he said they were friends before they dated so they are just friends again but I don’t want them to be friends, I don’t want him to talk to her ever. what’s wrong with me. now I just look at her and think i have to be better than her, so my husband wont think she is so great, I think it’s just my mind, but I’m tired of being mad at her.