yvonneguerra84

I m so excited, I’m gonna meet my husbands friends from when he was in the phillippines. They live in california now and we are going in feb.  They have never seen me before, so I am so motivated to lose this weight and look better. I can’t wait. My coworker has been gone for like 2 months, he came back and when he saw me, he said, wow, you lost a lot of weight. You look so much better. That made me smile. And my other coworker, she told me that she can tell I have lost a lot of weight. I have really lost 16 pounds, I had lost a lot before starting this buddyslim. I still want to lose 20 pounds though, before I go to cal. or at least 18.Is that too much in 2 months?

well, more drama, I read my husbands ym, and saw he was asking HER who her first boyfriend was, I know i said this already, but i didn’t read the whole thing, he said ” your first boyfriend was probably me. lol ” I asked him why he would ask her that, and why he would write that, he said that wasn’t him, he promised, he said it must have been his brother trying to be funny. He said he has too much pride to write that, he said that sounds like he is still interested in her! He told me this, “I’m gonna end this now, I don’t care about her, I don’t care what she thinks, or what she has to say, I love you, and only you. So stop worrying, I don’t want you to keep thinking these thing’s, I don’t want you to be so suspicious of everything I do, I love you” Now, I believe him, but all that keeps going through my head, is that maybe he still has feelings for her. What you all don’t know is that I got pregnant before we decided to get married, and we had a tough time. He acctually told me he wasn’t ready, but we did it anyways. He says that he love’s me and that he is happy he married me, but all that I can think about, is that maybe he wasn’t ready because of her. When we were dating, THAT GIRL wrote me and email on friendster,” Did he ever tell you about the bad things hes done”. Now, I was really upset, So my hubby called her, and asked her why she wrote that, and she said she didn’t know why. And he told her he never wanted to talk to her again. that’s why they havn’t talked. She ACCIDENTALY sent an email to my husband when we were dating that “why did he choose her, I’m so mad at him, who is this yvonne anyways,” blah blah blah. She said she meant to send it to her friend. God I’m so mad, and sad, and sad…………….just needed to vent, sorry for making this so long. I don’t have anyone else to talk too.

Thank you everyone for your advice, I did talk to my husband, and he said he doesn’t want to talk to her anymore, that he really doesn’t have anything to say to her. He said that he doesn’t really know her anymore. He told me that when His friend asked her who her first boyfriend was, she gave someother guys name, when she had always told him that he was her first boyfriend. He seemed kind of hurt, but I could be wrong, I hope he isn’t coz I expect him to not care about that. He told me he loves me, and he doesn’t care about her anymore. I really believe him though. I just hope he is being honest, coz I love him more than anything. Thanx again for telling me to talk to him. I thought he would be angry, but he wasn’t at all. LUV YOU BUDDIES.

I’m so frustrated. I’m tired of being mad at my husbands ex. She invited him on yahoo messenger, and he didn’t tell me, I just went downstairs at like 2am and he didn’t say anything, then his brother and his friend were talking to her and I heard his brother say Bea. Then I asked who are you talking to, and he said his brother and friend were talking to bea. I hate it, he said they were friends before they dated so they are just friends again but I don’t want them to be friends, I don’t want him to talk to her ever. what’s wrong with me. now I just look at her and think i have to be better than her, so my husband wont think she is so great, I think it’s just my mind, but I’m tired of being mad at her.

I’m so happy it’s friday. I have the whole weekend off. I’m so ready to reach my mini goal. We had to stop our gym membership at L.a.fitness. because they kept cheating us 70 dollars a month. They would take the 70 for me and my husband then take another 70 that they can’t explain why. They kept telling my husband to talk to our bank. grrrrrrr. it’s been 3 months they have been taking that extra 70 out. And they can’t explain where it is coming from. Now my husband got so mad that they asked him to leave, so there goes our membership. They are so frustrating. We are gonna go to lifetime instead, a little more expensive, but it’s open 24 hours 365 days a year. I can go early before I go to work even if i want too. or late when I work till 11pm. Just had to tell you all my problem of the day. Thanks for listening.

I have to learn to say no to all the sweets when I’m angry. I’ve found out that that’s what i’m doing. Instead of telling that person why i’m mad, i’ll go eat and it will make me feel better, for a little while. Then I will feel guilty for eating it. I have eatin so much today, now I feel terrible. I’m working 16 hours today, I’m a nursing assistant. I take care of dementia patients, and i’ts really hard work. I keep eating here, they always have cookies, candy, sweets. grggrrr, i’m so upset with myself. I think I will do a double workout tommorrow and cut back on my foods. I’m sorry hotrods!

I’m so frustrated, I saw my husbands ex girlfriend on friendster, and she is so pretty. She lives in the phillippines though. I wish I could look like her, she is like a size 2. oh well, i’ll never be a size 2, I don’t really want to be a size 2, maybe a size 5 would be good. I just don’t want to feel like she is a threat. I know she isn’t here, but i’m so afraid my husband will look at her and think, why did I leave her for this one. I know i’m being stupid, but i’m in a stupid mood today. I guess i can look at her as motivation to get thinner. My husband loves me, I know that, but……… I don’t know. any advice anyone. I think too much. lol. I’m going to the gym after work. I went to outlet at midnight on thursday, and bought so much stuff from adidas, i’t makes me feel good when I’m wearing nice clothes to exercise in. well ttyl. bye.

I am now under 150. I couldn’t wait for this day. I feel grrrrrrrreat. I acheived my mini goal, and I feel so much better about this weight loss thing. I think I can really do it. No turkey is gonna ruin this for me. I don’t want to be sad to look in the mirror anymore. Thank yo all for your help. mwah!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so sad, I ate like 10 cookies that a patients family brought in, they were little cookies, but it’s still bad. well, i havn’t eatin anything else though, so i have to make sure I eat less through out the day. I’ts my husbands birthday monday, and tonight he wants to go out and eat and watch beowulf. I will only get a salad. I didn’t reach my goal of 3 pounds this week, but I think 2 is ok. I exercised my a*& off lastnight. I am so glad I did.   I will tonight too. 1 hour on the eliptical again. It was so hard. but i did it. thank you for all of your help. but i need  some motivation. I need to stop eating the sweets. grrrrrrrrgrrrrrrrrr

Hello everyone, let’s get our work done today, I’m trying to stay motivated, but it’s hard when I’m so tired. I’m about to go weigh myself, I hope I didn’t gain any. I didn’t do bad yesterday so I shouldn’t, But it’s better to go in that way, so i’m not sooooooooo dissapointed. never mind, if i did it’s my fault and i just gotta work extra hard today.  c yall later.